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I got a new journal.. those of you who actually want to be on my friends list comment on my journal and let me know.. cuz there is no point haveing people on my friends list that dont even wanna be there.. but if you REALLY want to let me know and i'll add you and you can add me back !! take care all ! :)
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(8 Wings | Free Me)
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[16 Feb 2003|02:28pm] |
I LOVE YOU SPANKY !!!!!
ok thats all i had to say !!
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(2 Wings | Free Me)
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[16 Feb 2003|11:19am] |
Everyone my new AIM Screen name is AbRcRmBiEcRaZi53 so add me !!
I got a killa headache !! aargh...but i've practically taken the whole bottle of advil..so i guess i cant take anymore lol !
My mom and everyone left to shopping which leaves me stuck here at home !! all alone....! can you say... PARTY! haha jk !! Im a little angel and would never do something like that... haha yeah right youd have to be a complete dumbass to believe that..
yay !! my family and I just got invited to dinner at the eatons ( a cool ass family ) they are the best..and not to mention my dad and chris eaton ( the dad) lol were best friends...an so i love going over there cuz there are so many memories and its alot of fun plus there is a guy eric there who is soo nice and hes fun to hang w/ lol.. we always sneak in the frige and get some beer !! heheh.. !
well i gotta go take a shower and find an outfit !!
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(7 Wings | Free Me)
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[15 Feb 2003|06:48pm] |
I cant stop crying, im so depressed now just when i thougth my life was finally back on track it goes downhill.
It's been 7 years since my dads death. I've never really cried over it like this, I've had my moments where i've missed him but that hasnt been for awhile. I'm now 14 an when he died i was about 7. I'm sorry if this isnt making sense to any of you i cant even think straight. I mean god i can hardly breath. Why the fuck did my parents even bother to have kids. I mean my mom and dad both new that he ( my dad) wasnt going to be around much longer. They both new very well that my dad was going to die within the next few years so why did they bother having kids ? why put ME and my brother through that pain? I would give anythign to have him back just to have him hold me in his arms and hear him tell me he loves me .buts thats not gonna fucking happen .. god i hate this fucking world God is so fucking selfish why the fuck did he take my damn father .. why him ?? I would of given my life for him just so he could live i really would of. you know what pisses me off more than anything ..when i hear that people say they fucking hate their mother or FATHER.. dont u peopel fucking realize life is to short .. what if your father died tonight ? what if.......you need to cherish every fuckin moment you have w/ your father .. cuz its not gonna be to long until... wel u know ..
i hate this.. i thought i had friends..but NO ONE will listen to me.. no1 will comfort me an just listen to me....... fuck this !!!!!!!!!
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(5 Wings | Free Me)
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[14 Feb 2003|06:18pm] |
So today went pretty good.. jus put the whole fact thats its v-day in the back of my head.. i hated school though having to see all the couples gettin presents from their boyfreinds at one point it got to me so bad i had to go to the bathroom and jus cry my eyes out.. and when my friend elisha came to the bathroom to see what was wrong im jus like oh i had something in my eye.. i coudlntl et everyone know how bad it was getting to me..
I talked to brit early we are best freinds again.. i dont think we were ever not best freinds we just went through a point where we had a huge ass fight.. but like i said to her that just brings us closer together... I need her in my life right now ...well i need her in my life all the time !! lol i love you spanky !! lol ..
Im so happy right now though..cuz i know that i ahve my best friend back...that just brightens up my whole v-day !!!
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(2 Wings | Free Me)
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[11 Feb 2003|04:49pm] |
today sucked !
brandon and ryan ( 2 guys in my class ) got in a fight over me..
god they are so dumb.. and u know what i didnt think that would affect me but it has.. i feel like shit and im fed up w/ dating. im sick of everyone telling me how great they have it w/ their girl/boy an how they have all these plans for v-day ..god shut the fuck up people ! i've never done anything on v-day..and wont for a long time..and i hate it !!
i jus want so bad to be w/ someoen on v-day.. we dont even have to go out an spend money.. i jus want soemoen to hold me in their arms tell me how pretty i am an all the good things they like about me.. to tell me its all gonna be ok.. but im not gonna get that !
an to make my life even worse.. my mom isnt doing so well physically .. she wont admit to it....shes having heart problems..and might have to go to the hosp. and i cant lose her i just cant damnit !
shes all i got .. i dont have a dad.. :( and if i lose her its jus me and my bro.. and hes only 12.. god .. i jus i hate this.. i lost my dad when i was 7.. an now my mom.. atleast i still have her for now ..
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(3 Wings | Free Me)
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[10 Feb 2003|06:19pm] |
well today was very interesting
come to find out ryan my b/f has a g/f gabbie but hes breaking up w/ her for me..an i want him to do it now !! but he told me he cant until after v-day because he has plans i dont get it ! im like if you like me then you can break w/ her ..but his excuse is he has a rep at ellsowrth high school and hes not going there this year so he dotn want rumors going around about it..and hes friends w/ gabbie's friend and he dont want her getting mad at me ! what do i do !
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(3 Wings | Free Me)
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[09 Feb 2003|06:19pm] |
Well I jus got home. Im so tired I worked 9 hrs on Saturday but I made 80 bucks so im happy. I had to work at the tennis center and then i had to serve at the sweetheart banquet .it was fun i like waitressing it was so embarrassing though i tried showing off by holding the tray in one hand and twirling it with my finger and i dropped it! omg i turend as red as this one ladies shirt an to top it off everyoen laughed !! aarghh.. luckily the tray was empty !!!
I had fun with elisha.. i'm so happy to have her !! I talked to ryan and hes supposed to call at 8:30 ... yay ! on friday we are going on a field trip for school and me an elisha went out an bought these sexy outfits and a valentines day thong.. haha we told kyle and ryan our boyfriends that we have a surprise for them .haha we cant wait !! .. i like ryan alot and from what i've heard he totally digs me !! saweet !! his friend ashton likes me to..but ah.. im not into the whole 2 men at once thing.. i can only please one guy at a time..haha my new moto !!
well i havent talked to brit for a long ass time and i dont know.. i mean i do miss her and im going to miss doing alot of the things we had talked about doing..but maybe its best we dont be friends anymore...but then again i could be wrong.. i mean i am ONLY 14 ..and she is right i am pretty immature at times..and shes almost 18 and has more importatant things to worry about in her life than what a 14 year old does i mean im jus a kid !!! if you think about it im just starting out in life.. but i guess it could also be a good thing having an older influence ..but from what i've been told she dont give a 'fuck' about us being over..an if thats how she feels than thats how she feels..im going to be honest i do care..and its life you gotta deal w/ shit like that.....haha but now im stuck cuz my order i made awhile ago for her christmas presents came in..aargh !! i dunno what to do.. cuz i got like $200.00 bucks worth of shit ..an i cant really give it away to anyone else..but i guess i could jus keep ..maybe things will work out but i can only hope an pray..but i will say that im not gonna put up w/ that bullshit of her giong b ack an forth like w/ her an laura..if your gonna say your done than your done.. no more going back an forth thats annoying as hell !! aarghh
wel im going to get off i got a huge ass history test tomorrow and i havent really studied ..wish me luck please !! pray for me !! aargh
well i need to go.. night !
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(3 Wings | Free Me)
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[07 Feb 2003|04:09pm] |
well today went pretty good. tomorrow morning at 9 i am meeting a photographer to discuss making a portfolio and gettin started w/ modeling. I'm excited and nervous !! wish me luck. Then after that i gotta work up at the tenis center w/ emliy till 3 and then i will head to elishas w/ emily and get all dressed up to serve at the sweetheart banquet.. !
I guess me and brit are over..i dont know what more to say about that.. im not gonna say im happy its over..i mean we had a great friendship..an i'll miss her.and i do love her...
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(8 Wings | Free Me)
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[06 Feb 2003|04:34pm] |
I woke up at 4am this morning couldnt sleep ! Im stuck sleeping on the couch for 2 weeks while my rom is being redone ! yay ! I cant wait till this weekend friday night me and my friend elisha and her b/f and my b/f (ryan ) tell you about that later are going on a double date to the movies and then back to kyles place to chill ! fun fun ;) Then Saturday at 5 me and elisha, emily an melissa are going to the sweetheart banquet at 5. we are waitressing ! fun fun !! Then after that im staying the night at elishas ! so i got a fun weekend..
so anyways.. elisha set me up with ryan today !! i love that girl.. shes so awesome i can tell her everything and dont have to worry about her thinking bad of me.. shes the best :) OMG !! Elisha's family invited me to go to Florida with them april vacation !!!!!!!!!! I cant wait !!!!!! only prob is my mom and bro are coming along :( :( oh well.. ! well hey i gotta get off and call ryan ..and then elisha ! so i will write more later !! luv ya all !
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(2 Wings | Free Me)
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[04 Feb 2003|12:58pm] |
Ok so today i woke up feeling like shit again..but better than monday.. so i stayed home from school thinking i was going to have yet another day like monday. But by 11:30 i was feeling great ! But didnt wanna go to school no point ! by the time i got all ready school would be about over. OMG i wanna shoot myself .. here i thougth i was atleast decent looking.. remind me never to think that again look what this chick jus Imed me and said
caliprinzess22: get a life and a better body b4 u put pics of ur ugly ass on the net thanx - just a freindly word ffrom cali
ouch !! :(
know im crying.. why am i letting this get to me.. im letting her win...
OMG ! people i learned a lesson today and i taught it to myself.. it pays to be nice to your enemies !! look at this !!
caliprinzess22: get a life and a better body b4 u put pics of ur ugly ass on the net thanx - just a freindly word ffrom cali
AngelicVixen02: riight
AngelicVixen02: im not gonna waste my breath
caliprinzess22: i just had to say cuz my bfs pucking
AngelicVixen02: sucks to be him
AngelicVixen02: lol
caliprinzess22: yea i guess
AngelicVixen02: :-)
caliprinzess22: sux to be u more tho
AngelicVixen02: no not really
AngelicVixen02: im satisfied with what God gave me
AngelicVixen02: thank you very much
caliprinzess22: yea God gave me a beautiful body and mind too, no pills surgery or lipo
AngelicVixen02: thats awesome :-)
AngelicVixen02: everyone is beautfiul in one way or another
caliprinzess22: yep but im so special
caliprinzess22: lol jk
AngelicVixen02: lol...u prob are
AngelicVixen02: everyone in cali is so fuckin gorgeous
AngelicVixen02: makes us maine gurls look like shit ! lol
caliprinzess22: hey its ok
AngelicVixen02: so r u in ftj ?
caliprinzess22: yea
AngelicVixen02: can i c ?
caliprinzess22: i guess so the pics are so old tho
caliprinzess22: its caliprinzess
AngelicVixen02: your pretty :-)
caliprinzess22: thanx
AngelicVixen02: welcome
AngelicVixen02: your only 15 ? wow you look older
caliprinzess22: what no im 17 where did u get that?
AngelicVixen02: um.. from your profile..
AngelicVixen02: isnt is caliprincess ?
caliprinzess22: no its caliprinzess
AngelicVixen02: oh shit .. haha
caliprinzess22: fuck no thats not me lol LMFAO
AngelicVixen02: haha...
AngelicVixen02: well i didnt know
AngelicVixen02: your still pretty though :-)
caliprinzess22: yea
caliprinzess22: its ok
AngelicVixen02: so do u think it would make everyone in cali happy if i took off my pics ?
caliprinzess22: lol i was j/k do what u want
caliprinzess22: im only playin around cuz im bored as hell
AngelicVixen02: oh .. lol ok
AngelicVixen02: I mean its nothing i havent heard before
AngelicVixen02: so it wasnt anything new
AngelicVixen02: jus gets annoying after awhile
caliprinzess22: o im sorry
ok..i am all better :)
AND THE MORAL OF THE STORY IS : IT PAYS OFF TO BE NICE TO YOUR ENEMIES !!
AND THE GIRL WAS JUS A JELOUS BITCH !! HAHA CUZ SHE WASNT ALL THAT EITHER !!
ok.. im being mean again *slaps myself*
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[03 Feb 2003|08:26pm] |
omg .. look what this guy said to me !!! yay
Damion071: i wana be with u for a really long time. i wana make your plans come true by marrying u and making it so u can go to collage and to have kids with u
wow!! hes sooo sweet !! he didnt mean marrying me right now he ment when im older.. wow !! im speechless and soo in love hehe
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(1 Wings | Free Me)
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[03 Feb 2003|08:25am] |
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God i hate this !! I'm stuck at home w/ strep :( I got the worst headache..Well I dont have much to say anyways.. I'm gonna go lay down..
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(Free Me)
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[02 Feb 2003|10:45am] |
I feel like shit right now. I got the worst sore throat ever it hurts to talk it hurts to breath it hurts to swallow...etc.
And then i got a headache the size of this state and no advil or anything :( Im akie all over :( An there is no1 here to make me feel better.
and to top it all off ...i miss brit so bad right now :(
Last night i ended up meeting that guy james from online and it went alright ...but on the way home ..he was being a total asshole to me ..This is why i like girls better.. but theres no girls around here that are bi..I just need somebody right now i really do. I know im young and all but damn.. some people just need someone there for them....I know i have friends..but the now that i think of it.. i only have 1 real friend that i know will stick w/ me through thick an thin and i can tell her everything..and thats brit..i love her soo much..and im so thankful to have her..but I just want a g/f !! damn...and i jus remember valentines day is coming up.. once again im gonna be sittin home as if its any other day all bymyself..probally crying..wishign someone was there to hold me..but thats all a dream....thats all it ever will be..
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(2 Wings | Free Me)
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[31 Jan 2003|09:04pm] |
Well tomorrow I start my first day of work ! wish me luck. But after work i get a reward hehe.. me and Elisha are going to the tanning bed .. woohoo! I cant wait to be tan...!! :) :)
I miss brit so bad right now... I would give anything to have things the way they used to be. i remember when i could just call her up and within 15 mins id be at her place watchin a movie or going into town ...i remember the parking lot w/ all the hot guys...hehe... My life has been going so much better though. I'm actually gettin out into the community hehe..
oh yea.. sunday me and my mom are going to meet James (the guy from brewer) and if my mom likes him i can chil with him for the day and hopefully see him the following weekend. I had to tell alittle white lie to my mom though lol.. i told her that i knew james through my friend mariah..but oh well.. its worth it ! ..and its awesoem cuz he knows my real age..and hes only 16 !! and he drives and has a car.. who knows ..maybe i'll be w/ him for v-day !! wouldnt that be sweet ! i've never done anything on valentines day.. never .. i hardly knew it excsisted ! lol.. well i gotta go to bed gotta get up early tomorrow
i love you all !!
i love you brit Muah !!!!!
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[30 Jan 2003|08:27pm] |
thanks to closed_curtains for the coolest icon ever !!!!!! i love you !! ::HUG::
what does everyone think ???
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[30 Jan 2003|06:04pm] |
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woohoo! tomorrow night im stayin the night at my friend elishas an then saturday we are going to babysit at this tennis center ! .. and if we do that then the lady will give us a part time job working there !! omg.. me and elisha are gonna save up and get a car 2gether !! yay !! i love that girl !! alright so i takled to steven today... he said he misses me and all..and said hes gonna stay single till he can get his life straightend out..so that we can have a good long lasting relationship ! saweet..!! i miss brit :( she hastn caleld me yet but hopefully she will..it seems like every time she says she is gonna call she falls sleep or somethign comes up ..but yet she can make time to call other people..im not mad at her im jus confussed as to why she cant ever call me.. or atleast just tell me she cant call.. out right..but oh well.. i guess i will wait and hope that she calls me tonight.. I guess it seems to me like she is avoiding takling to me on the phone ? thats jus my insitcnt..but then again she is going through alot right now and probally needs her space..i love you brit ! if your reading this..hehe.. i cant wait to see her in feb..we are gonna have soo much fun !! :) :) lol i told my friend brandon who goes to schol w/ me i was going to boston to see a freind and he goes who u goin w/ i go im goin alone he goes no your not...and i go what ? he goes im goin w/ ya .. lol hes so cute !! My life is finally getin back on track.. i got friends !! and not jus girl friends.. guy friends !! wee!! i havent had this ..well i have never had this.. !! woohoo!!... well i gotta go .. i love you brit !!! Muahhhhh!! your the greatest..and im so thankful to have you.. your the only fridn that i can pour my heart out to and your my #1 !! and you always will be :) :)
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[29 Jan 2003|08:56pm] |
OMG OMG OMG theres this guy in brewer...like 45 mins away from em and we are gonna meet up this weekend and go snowmobiling !!!!! omg eep.....im sooooo excited woohoo!!
night night all
i love you BRIT aka SPANKY!
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